Lord, thank you for Joanne
I wish I had more time to go to Listowel to see my mom's long time friend Joanne. When I do visit Joanne it is not in the comfort of her and husband's Glens home. I pull into the parking lot and wait for the parking arm to go up. Making sure I have $2.00 to get out I walk across the road and into the emergency entrance at the Listowel hospital.
Walking the quiet halls to her room I still find my self questioning God what his plan is for Jonne. "Lord it is almost two years. What are you waiting for? Is there something I am not doing? Should I come up to pray more? Is there something her family should do? IS there something Joanne needs to do? Why not just heal her? Why not bring her home?" I ask quietly as I approach her room.
I can not help but remember the vision/dream where I walked into Joannes hospital room and she was sitting up in bed looking healthy and ready to leave that hospital forever.
Joanne had a major stroke almost 2 years ago. The stroke has left her the ability to slightly move her head and bat her beautiful eyes. Her eyes are what show there is lots of life in her to I am frustrated and being stubborn. I feel as though if arms could extend out the pupils they would grab my shoulders with the request of "Help me."
Visits I have prayed with and for Joanne have been emotional for her. My visit today while I didn't pray outloud I noticed Joanne was just not herself. However I was pleasently surprised as she mouthed, "Bye" and "kay" when I shared we are praying for her.
I wish I could be there everyday with her to sing worldly fun songs and worship songs. Pull out a book and read it to her. Put ear phones on her and let her drift off with her favorite songs. Make the ultimate speech program for her to communicate more.
Yep I have a huge prayer list especially a miracle in 2014 for Joanne. As a good friend reminded me it is all in Gods timing. I must trust and wait. In the mean time I do what I can to be there for Joanne and follow the nudges I get. My good friend also said, "For God two years is nothing but for us it feels like eons."
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Saturday, October 5, 2013
Earthly Stroke vs. Heavenly Stroke
Lord bless my words:
As I parked our van in the wheelchair parking spot I found myself in a daze. My son and daughter colouring in the back waiting for the word to get out and go into the hospital. I have parked her lots before to visit a princess.
On the first floor in room 108 is Joanne. That hospital has been her home for over a year. Joanne suffered a major stroke which in Satan's mind has left her paralyzed. I could write on and on about all the equipment in her room. My heart tells me though that is what Satan wants me to see and what he wants you to see when you go the hospital to visit people you know and love. I do not visit Joanne because I feel bad for her and feel obligated because it is my moms very dear friend.
You see I have something Joanne needs inside her and needs to hear. So simple. It is Jesus. When I go to see her thanks to Jesus I see the princess He sees. I feel the love He has for her. I have a great sense of the great plans He has for her. He wants her to know how much He loves her. Her precious body needs the Holy Spirit trickling through her veins oh and pumping in her heart. She deserves to know there is a freedom and peace that she owns thanks to Jesus.
I have taken Joanne worship music. I bought her a dollar store princess crown and it sits on her shelf. But today I spoke a prayer over her with little response and that was to accept Jesus into her heart. "Lord forgive her sins, may her heart accept You and invite you in. Lord may she continue to commit all she has to you." The best gift I have. It is all I have. I also sang "Jesus Reigns" quitely behind her followed by a few lines of, "Jesus loves you."
Satan may have won with a earthly "Stroke" but our God hahahaahhaha is much bigger and HE won with his stroke of death on the cross. Earthly stroke vs. heavenly stroke...no matter what Joanne is going through she needs to know she already won. Don't we all?
Joanne does cry and responds when she feels up to it. I sense frustration, hate, hurt and even fear looking at her face. I constantly pray for peace that surpasses no other. I totally believe God can heal her. Will He? That I don't know. Should I be angry if he does not (the way I expect) as I really feel like He wants to. What does His healing look like compared to what healing looks like to me?
"Lord over a year now is so so long...please show us your plan for Joanne. Be with her husband Glen and other family members. They all need you! Revelation, revelation..."
As I parked our van in the wheelchair parking spot I found myself in a daze. My son and daughter colouring in the back waiting for the word to get out and go into the hospital. I have parked her lots before to visit a princess.
On the first floor in room 108 is Joanne. That hospital has been her home for over a year. Joanne suffered a major stroke which in Satan's mind has left her paralyzed. I could write on and on about all the equipment in her room. My heart tells me though that is what Satan wants me to see and what he wants you to see when you go the hospital to visit people you know and love. I do not visit Joanne because I feel bad for her and feel obligated because it is my moms very dear friend.
You see I have something Joanne needs inside her and needs to hear. So simple. It is Jesus. When I go to see her thanks to Jesus I see the princess He sees. I feel the love He has for her. I have a great sense of the great plans He has for her. He wants her to know how much He loves her. Her precious body needs the Holy Spirit trickling through her veins oh and pumping in her heart. She deserves to know there is a freedom and peace that she owns thanks to Jesus.
I have taken Joanne worship music. I bought her a dollar store princess crown and it sits on her shelf. But today I spoke a prayer over her with little response and that was to accept Jesus into her heart. "Lord forgive her sins, may her heart accept You and invite you in. Lord may she continue to commit all she has to you." The best gift I have. It is all I have. I also sang "Jesus Reigns" quitely behind her followed by a few lines of, "Jesus loves you."
Satan may have won with a earthly "Stroke" but our God hahahaahhaha is much bigger and HE won with his stroke of death on the cross. Earthly stroke vs. heavenly stroke...no matter what Joanne is going through she needs to know she already won. Don't we all?
Joanne does cry and responds when she feels up to it. I sense frustration, hate, hurt and even fear looking at her face. I constantly pray for peace that surpasses no other. I totally believe God can heal her. Will He? That I don't know. Should I be angry if he does not (the way I expect) as I really feel like He wants to. What does His healing look like compared to what healing looks like to me?
"Lord over a year now is so so long...please show us your plan for Joanne. Be with her husband Glen and other family members. They all need you! Revelation, revelation..."
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